I ll be damned

It still shakes the hell out of me. Every single time it pops up in front of my eyes . Every single time i look it up online.

Reason says i must stop looking it up ,but my idiotic self still can't .

It seemes like i m just a little fool who likes to be tortured by a mirage.

I pray one day soon i ll get myself to stop thinking, remembering or looking it up anymore.

Pray for me.